Just ignore the title. Sorry for being so like OVER.
But yeah seriously. 2015 has taught me way more than you would know. Things that I personally learned as I progressed.
First, Degree life.
Well sorry for the MIA for so long. Life is so hectic till I wish I can bring instant noodles wherever I go (yeap, I am THAT busy).
Assignments, projects, deadlines, events. EVERYTHING.
*kano*
Well, as for life, I like it the way it is.
My bestfriend got engaged during National Day and yeah I guess everything else is just like how it was before.
My heart?
Oh you mean the one that I had before?
I think Ive misplaced it somewhere. You see, I have been through hell and back in order to retrieve it, yet failed. As you can see through my posts on instagram, a lot has happened recently. I went to Uniten for a few times (a few? You judge) for a jog (or jogs more like). Yeah. Somehow, I realized that my actions were futile. I realized it now that somehow, as much as I want to retrieve my happiness, being around Uniten is only going to add up to my pain. Although I told everyone "Eh taklah, aku tak sedih pun aku tenang kat sana." but come on, like seriously? I'm not that patient, I'm not that strong.
One day I realized, "buat apa lagi aku pergi sana?" If that person can be happy without me, why can't I? Somehow, I think I have tried my best. Just tell me what is it that I didn't do?
-I went to that person's house(s)
-I went to that person's campus, hostel.
-I checked everything that is related to that person's life (like a background check).
And the list goes on.......
You know, if you are reading this, you have created a brave Aiman, who is up for anything.
Proabably because I had enough of being broken.
So yeah, I have decided to come closer to nature and love the environment. I have no time to entertain anybody or to have any kinds of relationships.
I. AM. DONE.
Im moving on and Alhamdulillah, I am almost there.
My target now is to be a better Muslim and to achieve my goals.
Till then.
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