Pleasant Surprise.

Hello bloggy,

we meet again,

yeah it's been a while sin I last posted an entry here.

Busy with something called life.

eventhough I've already graduated from highschool.

but apart from that, life has been quite amazing in February, and quite harsh in April.

In 2012,

I've been spending a lot of time with my family.

During December of 2011,

I got my own car,

which is a Satria Neo Highline 1.6

Okay so,

This is it.

MY FEBRUARY FAVOURITE MOMENTS.

1-My cousin got married

2-Got my own driving license

3-My dad went on a surgery (minor surgery) and I got the chance to take care of hi

m at the Hospital (KPJ Ampang Puteri Specialist Hospital)

4-My sister delivered her baby which is my first nephew (Khairul Aafi Ikmal)

5-Been there for Faiz during his departure to Korea.

6-And last but not least, met NW for 2 times in 4 days.

yes, regarding number 6, yes I met NW, (WHAT AIMAN?! 2 TIMES IN 4 DAYS?! ARE YOU FOR REAL?!) yes bitch, it's true, but I didn't speak or talk to him, nor greeting him when he came. (AND WHY IS THAT?) I don't know, maybe I was so surprised that he came to my nephew's place. I was kinda O.o "Is this f**king real life?" but yeah kinda regret it but what to do, it's the past. But FYI, I dunno you were coming until You're at Banting. -.-

I kinda believe in the quote I got from my dearest sistah Anney, "Whatever happen, happens"

I'll be there for you. Always.

Yes dear, if it happen, it happens.

I really don't wanna talk about the past now.

Instead, just last saturday night, I found out about somebody posting pictures of NW with some crappy-ass words. And yes bitch, I was pissed off. Hello you're posting about someone that I've once fall in love with! (EHM, ONCE OR STILL?) *no comment* but hey it'ssomething that we all call as feelings. I am more than who I choose to be with okay? so what if I'm still not "OVER IT"? got any problems? BITCH, lemme tell you something. This f**king relationship that I'm not over with is not like yours! okay! flirt-date-break. NO! I've plan my LIFE with this person okay!

sorry coz I took this picture without ur permission. Cropped the registration number so that your identity is safe. This is the only latest picture of "us". :'(

And for the record,

I've always think (And still thinking) whether I could have a chance to live like I've always wanted in the future.

"KALAU SETAKAT NAK COMPARE DENGAN RELATIONSHIP KAU YANG COUPLE2 TAK KEMANA TU BAIK TAKPAYAH"

And psychologically,

if you're planning something for so long,

how can you just rip out the pages?

5 years maaaan.

No. This time I'm not holding back the real me,

if NW somehow managed to read this, then it's better.

I'M NOT OVER YOU

How can you not care about yourself when somebody out there is posting crap stuff about you? how is it okay? Even I never reveal your true identity in my blog.

NW, listen, I've planned everything for us. But it's you. YOU. It's up to you to decide.

(CRIED MUCH?) No. Why? Coz I've done my best. At least for the past 5 years. When there was you and me.

"AKU DAH BUAT YANG TERBAIK SO BUAT APA NAK SEDIH?"

Whoops, it's 1.41am and gtg to bed.

chiao. :)

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Untitled.

Assalamualaikum,

apa pun, aku doakan kau berjaya, dapat banggakan mak ayah kau.

Lupakanlah kita, or takpayah lupakan sebab tak pernah penting pun buat kau.

Aku tak pernah cuba untuk jadi kau.

But diri aku akan sentiasa ada Instant Smile when it comes to you.

Blog baru nie,

argh,

aku buat untuk,

lepaskan segala-galanya.

feel free to walk away from this page,

Every step that I took in my majestical daily life,

there's you in it.

I laminated your picture,

and turn it into a bookmark,

so that everytime I study,

You'll look at me.

Made a nametag with your name on it.

So that I could feel the confidence to get through another day.

I never bought a BB Torch,

sebab aku taknak kau kata aku tiru kau.

I never chose on buying A Myvi Extreme

sebab aku taknak kau kata aku tiru kau

I stopped my sister from buying an apartment at Pawana.

Sebab aku taknak kau ingat aku yang nak dekat dengan kau.

Life is hard for me.

Kau faham tak?

Kau keluarkan hati aku nie, basuh bersih2.

aku taknak simpan semua nie lagi dahla.

cukup lah nak dekat 5 tahun aku simpan nie semua.

AKU,

AKU,

AKU NAK LUPAKAN KAU,

tapi,

MACAMANA AKU NAK LUPAKAN KAU BILA KAU ORG PERTAMA YG ADA DALAM FIKIRAN AKU BILA AKU BANGUN TIDUR AND ORG TERAKHIR DLM FIKIRAN AKU BEFORE AKU TIDUR?

Bacalah nie.

Biar kau tahu. Aku seksa macam nie.

lepas apa aku buat pun,

yg aku dpt cuma:"Good"

HEY SOMEBODY IS DYING HERE BECAUSE OF YOU.

KEEP THAT IN MIND.

You won't cry over me kan?

TAKKAN.

aku kenal kau.

YES MEMANG KITA TAKKAN BOLEH BERSAMA.

but,

AKU TAHU KAU SIAPA.

Kau seorang yg suka, tp lama-lama jd benci.

unpredictable.

sekali lagi aku hanya mampu berkata-kata dlm blog ini.

Mustahil untuk berkata-kata dihadapan kau.

because why?

I would be the last person you ever want to meet on this earth.

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Tears and fake smiles.

Sometimes, world is acting unfair for some of us.

bak kata dia:"Life is hard, why make it harder?"

yes it is hard. harder than anything trying to survive another day knowing that forever is not enough for me to wait for you.

I can't even get a single grip.

because I oftenly lose them.

I am not superhuman.

Crying while posting this?

do you have to ask that?

Have I never cried when it comes to you?

I miss everything,

I miss us.

I miss the moment when its all just about you and I.

editing pictures, late night chat,

2010 was the best.

But yeah,

Realizing that you're a Limited Edition human being,

makes me fight for you.

All I ever do all of this while is imagining us.

Living peacefully,

harmonily.

but Allah knows everything,

He knows the best for us.

I pray everyday, during my prayers, so that I can be your friend.

Just a friend.

Deleted my previous blog because yeah we usually fight through blogposts.

It hurts me more than anything again realizing until this moment all I ever meant to you is an unknown stranger bugging into your harmony and peaceful life.

I don't want to lose you nor hate you.

But being me,

needs a lot of courage and determination.

You said:"MOVE ON AIMAN! WE CAN NEVER BE TOGETHER!"

but WHERE DO I GO? WHERE WILL I BE WITHOUT YOU? WHAT WOULD I DO?

5 years. For someone that has a high level of intelligence you should know that it is not a short period of time.

Allahuakbar, syukur, Alhamdulillah, praise Allah.

I had supporting friends.

All I ever want is to get close to you!

at lest, I could show them,

GUYS! I CAN BE HAPPY! EVENTHOUGH I'M JUST A FRIEND TO THAT PERSON!

when my friends are giggling, I giggle with them. But the one that will accompany me after those giggles are the never-ending misery.

I know,

one day,

you'll read this, and feel annoyed.

Again,

you'll leave me,

without any news.

Hey!

I'm not suprised.

I keep on waiting.

and waiting,

to be a friend that you can chat and share stories with.

Whatever it is, I want to see you one day in heaven.

Take care,

Assalamualaikum.

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